Figuring Out What It's All About
Welcome to the world of Brian's brain. In this blog you will get an in depth look into my thoughts, my feelings, my emotions, my problems, my emotions and the rest of my life. You don't have to read on, but are more than welcome to. Enjoy
Monday, March 21, 2011
Saturday, October 16, 2010
"Somewhere Only We Know"
Well, I haven’t written on here in a while. I guess usually I use it as an outlet to let out my frustration and anger, but I really don’t want it to be about that. Sometimes while down here (Florida) and having so few people that you can truly count on, this just became a good outlet for letting me speak freely. However, this time is going to be a little bit of everything. I’m going to vent, voice some concerns, releases some frustrations/anger and talk all about God’s amazing grace in the same entry.
Let me fill you all in on where the “Life of Brian” currently rests. My internship, which I’ve both loved and hated throughout, comes to an end of January 7th, and man is it coming quickly. It seriously feels like just yesterday when it was supposed to come to an end in May, and I signed on to stay ‘til January feeling like I had all the time in the world to get my life in order. Well since then, almost 5 months has gone by and I’m as lost and uncertain about the next stage as I was then. Fear is the word that comes to mind, however, I’d be much more fearful if I didn’t know I had anamazing God guiding and watching my back. I believe it is very possible to have an overwhelming sense of fear and relief all at the same time, because that’s what I’ve been feeling for so long. I’ve been thinking and praying (yet, not nearly enough on the praying part) about what I want and should be doing come January, and of course there is no clear cut answer set out before me. God has opened a few doors. Some of them are things I don’t necessarily want to be doing, but if it has become a path it was on purpose and maybe something will come out of it. There has been one door opened, which is something I would absolutely love doing, but I know it’s not something I can put all my hope into, I know I have to be practical here. Then I struggle daily with the decision to stay down here or come back home to Michigan. Key word being ‘home,’ which will always beMichigan. I desperately want to be around my family and some friends, but are there opportunities up there for me?
On top of the job, I was forced out of the townhome that my buddy and I were renting. It’s kind of a tricky situation. Some friends cut us a deal, then one of them got sick so they were gonna move back to Canada and needed to sell the home we were in for money to do so. So they did that and we received a call to be out in 30 days, and now they aren’t moving back to Canada. It’s cool whatever. We were very thankful for how long we got to live there, because it was a luxury we did nothing to deserve. However, in the 30 days I’ve had to move out, I had my sister and brother in law here for 5 days, then my best friend for the next 9. Then I went home for 4 days and am finishing off the 30 days by going on my first Disney Cruise for 3 days. Needless to say, I wasn’t able to look much and put much trust in my roommate to find us some nice accommodations. We put in an application to a place yesterday and should hopefully know by Monday. Praying that things go well there and I can at least get all my junk (which is a ton) thrown into the place before I leave for the cruise.
One of the bright spots in my life down here right now is that a brand new church just started in the Winter Garden area. The cool thing is that it’s a satellite location from a giant church up in Michigan. Kensington Church planted its first national campus here in Florida and started on September 26th. The church is amazing and has a young crowd with a young pastor that has an outlook of getting people to church who “don’t like church.” It’s an incredible concept and has been a great example of showing love to everyone, which I think is the perfect kind of church for the melting pot area known as Orlando. It has really opened up my eyes and heart to help me react to how I’m living my life. It’s been pulling a piece of my heart to get involved in ministry, so we’ll see what happens. I’ll keep ya posted!
Then there is that haunting topic of the girl in my life. I have so many thoughts on what I want, what I’m looking for, what would be best for me, what I have to offer and what God wants of me. I’m going to touch on that in a later post. Nice little cliffhanger for you. Until then, try something new. Let someone discover the faith you have in them. See how that makes a shining difference in their life.
"May the love hidden deep inside your heart find the love waiting in your dreams. May the laugher that you find in your tomorrow wipe away the pain you find in your yesterdays."